Secundina

“When you are born to be a failure, no matter how hard you try, you never stop being a failure.”

That is the motto of my life, I am not exaggerating, let's see when I was born many years ago, I will not say how many, but there are many, well enough, I have already deviated from the narrative, the thing is that the day I was born the next day my mother He died before they said it was my fault, no, it wasn't me, the day I was born, Mom found out that Dad had a lover, her pain was so much that she decided to end her life, her sadness was stronger than her motherhood, because Consequently, dad took care of my older sister and me.

From that moment my life was marked, first by losing my mother and second by the name, I say! In what head does it fit to name me Secundina? And the last name is García Anguamea, if that's okay, I give you permission to laugh, even I am already laughing at my misfortune, well let's continue., my dad in an act of repentance decided to stay alone, be a decent widower, he never married and whenever he presented, said García, a widower from Anguamea, to whom I was aware that he kept calling him a “ridiculous old man.” As I said there, my life was marked forever, let's continue, primary school, those damned Mother's Day festivals were the most tragicomic six years of my life, I really came to hate them, for eleven months I was happy, everything was that When May arrived, my torture began, from the television commercials to the school activities, that month both Dulce and I got sick, although dad knew well that it wasn't like that, he overlapped us during that month, I don't know why but that month hurt. a lot, neither the date of his death nor Christmas hurt as much as the month of May, six years passed and finally secondary school, yes! High school, without a doubt the best time of my life, I would live it again as I lived it although at that time my heart was broken, like a good teenage high school student my body changed, but not for the better, in fact I keep waiting for the duck to transform swan, my one seventy-five helped a lot, yes, yes, being one of the high ones, with care and training for the second semester I already belonged to the basketball team and not to the bench, no, to the officials, and that's how I met the love of my life or so I thought, how could I not? If he was the tallest in school, stocky, dark brown hair, honey-colored eyes and his way of playing basketball stole my heart, tremendous disappointment when he told me that he would never, ever hang out with someone like me, ugly, fat and stupid. nothing intelligent, with the little dignity that I had left I collected the fragments of my tender heart, I really tried to glue them together but I never could, no matter how hard I tried, it didn't help much that in high school Damián told me that he would never hang out with a woman so tall and that she was a shot put champion. What's my fault that he was six feet tall? And what was my fault for being good at sports? I mean, it must have been funny, right? If I wasn't pretty or intelligent for this point in my life, at the age of seventeen I hated my fatness and my height and before you criticize me and say nutritionist, exercise, etc., etc., etc. I tell him that I ran two kilometers a day, I walked fifteen kilometers, I had a good diet, but I was never able to lose weight, I suppose that was already my physical complexion but my teenager never understood it and to be honest, neither did my adult.

What I had as a good athlete was bad in love, so resigned that that field was not my thing, I concentrated on continuing with my training in both basketball and shot put, even going to the nationals and belonging to the official team of my city and my state I can proudly say that I belonged to the red wave, at the university things did not change so much, with my sports history I tried out for the basketball team of the Faculty of Nursing and Nutrition of course and As expected, I was among the starters, things changed when the selection was made for the official team of the University, there I was left on the bench and I was the number eight player but I didn't care, I was from Las Adelitas, for me it was a lot, between training, classes, I didn't have time to think about love, anyway that man and I don't get along, one day I was very comfortable doing a difficult anatomy task, when a classmate sat next to me, for Of course I didn't pay attention to it, believe me when I say that the peripheral nervous system had all my concentration, you will understand my surprise when the boy who was in front of me told me "you are the prettiest girl in the entire faculty" I looked up, I don't know What a look I gave him that I saw how he stepped back, but I remember well that I grabbed my things and got up from the place but not before telling him “go make fun of your fucking motherfucker”. The next day I was half-astonished because I told him that. to Prudencio who by the way was a model, drummer for his rock group and studied nutrition, but come on, who can blame me for not believing his words? Or yes, since you already know that I am “tall” and fat, white, big eyes without exaggeration, dark brown, wavy dark brown hair, straight nose, full and naturally outlined lips, that is if the lips and my eyes were my greatest pride, like I said fat but not the pretty one, yes, you know the one with a marked waist, a good chest and a good buttock, no, rather I was or am like a round cylinder, flat with concave curves, yes, that's me, Since I think about it carefully, I think that the only beautiful thing about me was or is my face, let's continue, with great difficulty and after four years I finally finished my degree in nursing, from there to my internship year, practically being a slave to the base staff and I have to say that that year was a good year, I think it is the second best thing that has happened to me and I would experience it again, there I met my best friend Esther Cantu better known as Tete or yes, the famous Tt, we lived together We went to the movies, to dance everywhere we went together, and in my social service I met Doctor Rojas, I literally drooled when I saw him and that made Tete laugh a lot, unfortunately for me the doctor knew that I drooled over his bones but! Unlike other times, he didn't call me ugly, stupid, or fat, nothing like that, he just said, you're too young for me. What? Oh my god,