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Ch-30

Not meant to be

"There was no expectations that reach in his eyes while he sees me but I hold it every second I look at him. 

Expectation that he will change back how he used to be but

Again

Everyone knows 

I don't deserve happiness"

I looked at him with expectation and said "please Lucas don't break me this much, don't make me start hating you this much because if that dark Esther came back. It will never a good sight to see"

I didn't said in anger, I stated in begging tone because I knew the queen Esther is never the one to be mess with.