Why Do I Write?

Dear Readers,

Last night, as I switched off the lights, & lied down on the bed, turning to my right, hugging my pillow, I contemplated, that why do I write. I'm suffering from the worst, or saying it more clearly, the aimless, goalless phase of my life. When I am literally doing nothing, why am I writing then, I asked myself, looking out of the window, & lying on my bed. Is it for some fame, or money or what? 

& I got my answer after debating for about half-an-hour, & tossing left & right, up & down my bed. I write, because I want to express, my ideas, my views, my very own self, & to interact with the world, with you all. To have an exchange of views, opinions, emotions between us. To give birth to the thoughts, ever dwelling & polluting my mind. 

I live a lonely life. A very lonely life, with literally nobody to call a friend, & definitely nobody to call closer.

I've this peculiar, & irritating habit to speak a lot. I speak so much, that my family members have to shut me up sometimes. Lol! But I never express my depth, my weaknesses to anyone, neither my family, nor anyone else.

So writing gives me a way, to directly & indirectly express myself, to the world out there. It somehow makes me feel awaited, & needed. I had started feeling like a useless person, but when I receive your comments occasionally that you're liking my story, or you like my character, I feel like I found a new vigor to live, & to write. No No, don't think I'm suIcidal though, it's just I find a new life here.

Plus writing makes me feel authorized! It makes me feel like Almighty, creating a new world, where not even wind will blow, without your permit. Crazy idea, right? Lol! But it makes me relate with those characters. I see myself in them, in their every activity. I fulfill all my dreams through them, the things I can never do, or maybe never got a chance to do.

I do write with great excitement, waking up late at nights, & sometimes my sleep vanishes, at the very thought of writing a new chapter.

I just hope you enjoy my writing, as much as I enjoy writing myself.

May all your lives be filled with happiness, with no trace of emptiness.

Thanks for reading.

Yours crazily weird Author,

~$D