Book. "Forever Ruined" read online
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Ranking:
#10 in Historical Romance
#744 in Romance


Ongoing: 12 Jul 349 pages

Publication: 28.11.2019 — ...


Description of book "Forever Ruined"

Benjamin McAllister's past was riddled with intrigue, war, and death. It was no place for a woman, such comforts as marriage, family and love were not meant to be his but one woman changed all of that for him.

Clara Bentley had won Benjamin McAllister's heart but the prize came with a price. He loves her, he married her but he cannot be with her. His responsibilities to King and Crown are too great, leaving her often alone.

Once she left him hoping he would follow. Hoping to get his attention, but his world caught up to hers and left her altered (see From the Ashes). Now she's leaving for a completely different reason.

Will they find their way back to one another, or will they both remain... Forever Ruined.

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Nneka Ofochebe
19.07.2021, 17:30:14

Hello Rue. when are updating please?

Nneka Ofochebe
19.07.2021, 15:55:21

Ruechari, OK thanks

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ZARA
14.07.2021, 10:18:14

Noooooo don't leave us in suspense!! :'(
Thank you for the update Rue. Anxiously waiting for the confrontation.

Ruechari guru
14.07.2021, 12:29:19

ZARA, It's coming.

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ZARA
24.06.2021, 12:35:43

Oh boi.. This tugs at my heart so much. That is serious accusation from Lord Fitton and while I appreciate the fact that he exposed the tea to Clara, I would have preferred him not incriminating Benjamin in it. As in, tell her what she had been drinking and let her think and judge by herself. I can understand why Benji would do this, a selfish way to protect Clara but the fact that this brought Clara to such despair, mental torture and pain, thinking she is broken– not to mention how much it means to her. It tears my heart that he did it. If it is indeed what Benji did.

Thank you for this beautiful and speedy update Rue.
On a positive note, I kinda look forward to a little spark between Beau and Rosalyn :P Beau is a real gentleman and a good friend, as is Rosalyn. I ship them! xD

ZARA
25.06.2021, 05:51:10

Ruechari, Oh ohkayy.. Wasn't aware of that fact! Scuttled my ship :(
xD

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Beatriz Reyes
23.06.2021, 23:58:37

Oh no! Not a good way to find out! But, did Benjamin really wanted to remove her ability to become with child for ever?!! I refuse to believe he could be that sinister and narcissistic. Not thinking about her wishes and happiness, makes me rethink if he really loves her like he says he does. Maybe she would be better off with some else. Not nice Benjamin, NOT NICE!

Ruechari guru
24.06.2021, 21:33:30

Beatriz Reyes, I'm sure his intentions were malicious and the effects are not permanent. So you will have to find out more as the story continues.

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Vicky Akindeju
22.06.2021, 20:23:31

too bad, Benjamin was preventing Clara from conception because of his work with the Queen. This is going to be a serious case when Benjamin will confirm what Filtron wrote to Clara and will be mad at him too.
Thanks for quick update. More strength.

Ruechari guru
22.06.2021, 20:14:12

Vicky Akindeju, Thank you!

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Marilyn Lucero
22.06.2021, 16:23:06

May Clara be open-hearted!

Ruechari guru
22.06.2021, 14:51:39

Marilyn Lucero, Let's hope so.

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Marilyn Lucero
20.06.2021, 10:46:31

Mr. Banks, stay away forever!

Ruechari guru
20.06.2021, 21:39:13

Marilyn Lucero, Hahaha!

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ZARA
15.06.2021, 10:49:07

Oh no.. What have you done now..


Thanks for the update Rue! The last lines are squeezing my heart and churning my insides! Successfully got us embarked on the Rue-llercoaster!! xD

Ruechari guru
17.06.2021, 11:32:32

ZARA, Hopefully I won't have to make you wait too long for the next update.

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Marilyn Lucero
14.06.2021, 17:23:21

This is getting more exciting.

Ruechari guru
14.06.2021, 19:07:12

Marilyn Lucero, Thanks!

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ZARA
03.06.2021, 09:09:46

That was a nice update Rue!
I absolutely love those two! Looking forward to the ball :)

Ruechari guru
03.06.2021, 11:45:00

ZARA, Thank you!

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ZARA
04.03.2021, 08:48:13

Very nice update! Loved the encounter with the Queen and looking forward to the husband-hunting ball! *giggle*

Ruechari guru
04.03.2021, 15:04:06

ZARA, Thank you!

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Joyce
03.03.2021, 20:41:49

Thank you for the update on the story

Ruechari guru
03.03.2021, 19:04:04

Joyce, You're welcome!

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Tinker Bell
27.02.2021, 18:47:31

Hey, update please. I am really excited to see what's coming next.

Ruechari guru
27.02.2021, 18:16:12

Tinker Bell, More updates are coming and I love your Profile my name. Tinker Bell is my girl, so I definitely can't let you down : )

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ZARA
24.02.2021, 08:31:16

Awesome understates how.. AWESOOOOMMME this continuation is getting!! Thank you so much for bringing that side of Clara out there where Benjamin acknowledges how smart and able she is. And they actually teamed up! :D Can't put to words how much I enjoyed the updates! Can't wait to read more!

Ruechari guru
24.02.2021, 20:06:35

ZARA, Thank you!

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Vicky Akindeju
23.02.2021, 13:36:11

In the course of protecting our loved ones, we underestimate their value at times. Benjamin could not believe himself that he has an asset as a wife. Everybody that come across Clara knows she's valuable and she has proved her worth to her husband today.
I am still cracking my.brain on whose side is the title coming from.
Thanks Author for reviving the book after a long break.

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Vicky Akindeju
23.02.2021, 13:22:42

Ruechari, okay.

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Doreen Muchirahondo-Chikozho
22.02.2021, 06:37:06

thank u fr this chapter.
am in love w this story

Ruechari guru
22.02.2021, 17:05:06

Doreen Muchirahondo-Chikozho, You're welcome. New update posted today.

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Marilyn Lucero
21.02.2021, 11:37:16

My goodness, I'm nervous!

Ruechari guru
21.02.2021, 17:04:01

Marilyn Lucero, Don't worry. New Chapter coming on Monday.

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Helen Hcf
19.12.2020, 08:36:38

Luv your story sooo awesome...exciting and very interesting....
Please update the next episode/s....more power to ur stories to come!

Ruechari guru
19.12.2020, 14:20:22

Helen Hcf, I'm glad to know you are enjoying it.

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Beata Gos
13.12.2020, 10:39:15

There is so much versatility in this story, very much noted, so amazed of the twists of events

Ruechari guru
19.12.2020, 14:20:06

Beata Gos, Thank you!

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Marilyn Lucero
12.12.2020, 07:30:38

Everything this book speaks about is utmost brilliance! How I wish the author could speed up the update of this amazing story.

Ruechari guru
12.12.2020, 15:16:29

Marilyn Lucero, I could but then you'd have to explain to all my other readers why their updates are not getting done. LOL!

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ZARA
11.12.2020, 12:09:42

That chapter was epic Rue! At last my innermost wish has been fulfilled!! Thank you! :D

Ruechari guru
11.12.2020, 13:50:00

ZARA, You're welcome!

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ZARA
08.12.2020, 13:59:28

See Benji, she is more, so much more.. Shoutout to you dear Clara for saving the situation.. again!

ZARA
09.12.2020, 11:07:41

Ruechari, Good! That also means you can go on thrilling adventures again, together this time as Clara is a perfectly able woman and this would definitely kindle the spark in her and keep her alive!

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Joy Martins
08.12.2020, 16:47:41

Best read on this platform, definitely my fave. Thanks Rue. Looking forward to the next chapters.

Ruechari guru
09.12.2020, 03:46:28

Joy Martins, Thank you so much Joy. Hope to have a new update for you tomorrow. Thanks for reading and thank you even more for taking the time to comment.

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Vicky Akindeju
08.12.2020, 08:36:38

Whao, good and intelligent woman.

Ruechari guru
08.12.2020, 12:55:18

Vicky Akindeju, Definitely, some quick thinking to be sure.

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ZARA
19.11.2020, 13:19:30

Beautiful update Rue! Hope everything's alright aboard the ship. Looking forward to the next update!

Ruechari guru
19.11.2020, 15:53:25

ZARA, Thank you! I guess we'll find out together when I post the next update.

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Seiyefa Asobor
14.11.2020, 15:30:09

when are you going to update your book na

Seiyefa Asobor
14.11.2020, 16:40:58

Ruechari, Thank you very much

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ZARA
20.10.2020, 12:28:58

Beautiful update Rue! Thank you! I love that Clara is finally opening up! :D

ZARA
21.10.2020, 06:17:48

Ruechari, Haha! Glad I can be of help! xD

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elizabeth
14.10.2020, 14:49:57

why do I feel Captain McCullen is not only interested in Clara's "wild" character and abilities and doesn't want her to be camped by Benjamin's side as a wife But he wants something more, something Clara can't give him? Anyway we'll see how it goes. Thanks for the update Rue, I loved it

Ruechari guru
14.10.2020, 13:34:40

elizabeth, Thank you!

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ZARA
08.10.2020, 14:06:35

McCullen daaamn! Despite the audacity and by times inappropriate behaviour that society would condemn, I love how perceptive McCullen is and just love that he set his mind to salvage her! Thank you so much for Chapter 50 Rue, I loved it! Everything he said was like what an inner voice inside Clara's mind would already be telling her! The fight already going on inside as she decides to stand by the one she loves and abide by the obligations attached, letting herself behind. McCullen's words reflected so much of how I felt about Clara killing that spark inside, accepting to be a mere little wife, and "having a place in the world, yet no voice". She is such a free and wild spirit. so much more than what society was forcefully moulding her into. I so want her to accept the capable and different Lady she is! I got your back Captain, don't let Clara give herself away!

Ruechari guru
12.10.2020, 09:42:43

ZARA, Working on it already.

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elizabeth
17.09.2020, 19:23:40

I loved the update Rue, hoping to enjoy more however I think it's time Clara opens up about her feelings and frustration to Benjamin. I mean she has always been a wild woman, not one to be camped at all and what happens to all her experience on the whispering wind? Yes she knew of Benjamin's status before agreeing to marry him but it's time Benjamin compromises too for her, I think she's done her best and going back to her old life before joining the whispering wind is going to be a torture. Hoping to see a turn around for her

Ruechari guru
17.09.2020, 19:09:33

elizabeth, Let's hope they make the right decisions to take them there, then.

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Vicky Akindeju
13.09.2020, 07:59:06

Thanks for your efforts in the update. God bless you

Ruechari guru
13.09.2020, 12:24:39

Vicky Akindeju, You're welcome!

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ZARA
01.09.2020, 09:19:57

Thank you for the update Rue :) I wish Clara could voice out what she truly feels. She is not a mere fragile object to "handle with care". This woman braved so much and showed more courage that probably any male sailor ever did or ever will. It frustrates me how now that she is back to being a woman in the open, she is having to wear stupid uncomfortable stuff and is having to portray a useless, fragile, silent and norm-abiding-by wife!

Btw, I really love how deep the story gets. With your stories, It's never just either a clear blue sky or a cloudy and rainy one. The situations are always a little more complicated, and seem more true and relatable to real life. In this chapter specifically I personally felt like the characters have a life of their own, they are the ones doing the thinking and taking their own decisions. It's just brillant!

ZARA
02.09.2020, 20:37:54

Ruechari, *rubbing hands together and giggling* Thank you for the scoop! Looking forward to it! :D

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ZARA
19.08.2020, 13:55:26

Bittersweet again :') Thank you for this beautiful and moving chapter :)

Ruechari guru
19.08.2020, 12:23:56

ZARA, You're welcome.

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ZARA
10.08.2020, 10:11:38

Thank you for this beautiful update Rue :) Can't help wonder what's going on inside Clara's head.. Feels like she wants to be with Benjamin but at the same time not go back to her old life, which I honestly don't want her to :/ I loved empowered and freed Clara and the way Benjamin puts his duty to the Queen above everything else really irritates and disturbs me.

ZARA
11.08.2020, 05:44:24

Ruechari, Yes I hope they do find a way to work it out and I hope whatever it is doesn't make Clara hollow and a living dead again.

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elizabeth
10.08.2020, 23:20:26

Wow this chapter was intense
Clara leaving Lord Fitton and Sturgis behind is so hard for her a d I understand but she needs to go back. I just hope Benjamin can do better this time. Thanks for the update Rue

Ruechari guru
10.08.2020, 21:04:10

elizabeth, You're welcome.

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ZARA
04.08.2020, 10:28:54

Beautiful chapter.. And when Clara told Benjamin all she went through and survived, I got chills! She made me realise we are more powerful and capable of far much more than we can possibly imagine :) Thank for this beautiful update Rue :)

Ruechari guru
09.08.2020, 14:10:44

ZARA, You're welcome, Zara! Thanks for reading : )

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elizabeth
30.07.2020, 12:41:02

wow I was expecting a fight or an argument between Benji and Clara not love making lol. I loved it though. Thanks for the update Rue

Ruechari guru
30.07.2020, 13:04:53

elizabeth, I like giving you the unexpected. Besides, right now, neither of them want to argue with one another. They are practically walking on eggshells around each other knowing they are both guilty of inflicting damage and not wanting to further that divide.

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elizabeth
27.07.2020, 19:24:24

things are going to be more interesting now. can't wait for the next update. Thanks Rue

Ruechari guru
27.07.2020, 21:47:16

elizabeth, Thank you!

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ZARA
27.07.2020, 13:41:13

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! OMG This is soooo better than I expected!! Thank you for this way beyond nice chapter and please update this one ASAP! Don't leave us on this cliffhanger!!

Ruechari guru
27.07.2020, 21:47:07

ZARA, Update coming soon!

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ZARA
21.07.2020, 09:23:02

Thanks for the update Rue!
Benjamin's playing tough with all the "Majesty Orders, return at once or you'll be charged with treason" gets me so mad at him! Is it really the time to doubt the fidelity of a woman who faced storms because of and for you? Would it be that hard to let out what you truly feel, express your fears and tell the truth about who you are, instead of unnecessarily threatening Lord Fitton's life?!

ZARA
22.07.2020, 07:44:50

Hahaha xD

To Rue: Nooo..! Yes the Queen sent him to get Fitton back but there is more than just his mission here.. Well I thought or rather I'd hoped he was going after Fitton to get Clara back.. Noo.. Don't tell me he will again focus on another one of his missions that cost him his home? *gasp* *aghast* Dear Lord he gotta be kidding me! It's their relationship and lives at stake here, not to mention Clara's agony.. Human relationships got to outweigh "orders" in the balance, right?! I'd expect him to go find her as Benji and not the Emissary sent with orders. Or maybe if Clara didn't faint then we would've seen Benji emerge and talk it out with her? But in front of Fitton he just remains as "The Queen's Emissary"..

To Benjamin: I do understand your point Sir but honestly could you blame your wife here? Even If she did find that somebody else that filled the void and sadness you left? Plus in your case she even left a letter and you know how she stayed by your side all these years despite you leaving her lonely and hollow. In your place I would hurry to make amends!

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elizabeth
19.07.2020, 19:51:44

wow how is Benjamin able to control himself so well? I admire his strength
Thanks for the update Ruechari

Ruechari guru
19.07.2020, 16:53:35

elizabeth, He comes from a military background and lineage and he's been a spy for the crown for several years. That doesn't happen without some discipline. Plus, he knows revealing who Clara is now would only serve to cause conflict for them all, and that is something he would wish to avoid.

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Beata Gos
15.07.2020, 09:44:30

Thank you very much, the long wait is over, Benjamin and Clara have finally met

Ruechari guru
15.07.2020, 09:55:18

Beata Gos, You're welcome.

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ZARA
14.07.2020, 13:33:48

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!! What happens next?? WHAT HAPPENS??!! Finally!! FINALLY!!!!
Was annoyed at Benji's thoughts specially knowing how much Clara loves him and he on the other side despite loving her was almost never there for her. I just hope everything works out fine now and that they both have a good talk. I'm so happy Benji finally made it to them :D At last he did:''') Thank you for the update Rue :')

ZARA
15.07.2020, 06:29:35

Ruechari, Looking forward to it!

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elizabeth
14.07.2020, 15:37:41

the much awaited encounter is finally here. What happens next Rue? Thanks soo much for the update

Ruechari guru
14.07.2020, 13:27:32

elizabeth, Next update will be coming soon. Hang in there!

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ZARA
06.07.2020, 15:07:45

Owh.. I'm feeling a mixture of "Wth was that attitude? But at the same time Redgrave was too quick to judge and Benji doesn't have to justify anything" and "Oh Benji is sooo near! Woohoo!".
Thank you for the update! Can't wait for the encounter!

ZARA
07.07.2020, 06:23:47

Ruechari, Ha ha! Indeed! xD

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elizabeth
06.07.2020, 18:58:54

That encounter was so massive, Redgrave couldn't hide what he feels for Clara even in the presence of Benjamin. Benji was really hurt by Redgrave's comment but I think he deserves it somehow lol. I hope he finds Clara soon. Thanks for the update Rue

Ruechari guru
06.07.2020, 18:18:01

elizabeth, You're right he did deserve it. Just a little. Getting to see Clara through the eyes of others, I think may open his eyes quite a lot.

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Patricias Mwirigi
23.06.2020, 21:23:13

we need a speedy update we want to know whether Benjamin will find answers to his questions or not

Ruechari guru
26.06.2020, 12:58:25

Patricias Mwirigi, Any time : )

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ZARA
26.06.2020, 09:11:04

Thank you for this update Ruechari.. I feel so sorry for all the pain Clara went through, especially after the stillbirth of her baby and being left on her own to deal with the immeasurable grief..Oh Benji, you have so much to fix!! Make it all right!

ZARA
26.06.2020, 11:37:51

Ruechari, Haha xD

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elizabeth
25.06.2020, 21:04:37

Thanks for the update

Ruechari guru
25.06.2020, 23:56:16

elizabeth, You're welcome : )

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Patricias Mwirigi
18.06.2020, 20:20:36

how romantic this is

Ruechari guru
18.06.2020, 18:20:47

Patricias Mwirigi, Thank you : )

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