Expectations (short)

-More then one can think, yeah sadly- my truth comes out so easily avoiding interlocking our gaze. 
-Could I tell you something, maybe then you'll be able to tell me something of your own- 'What' is my first reaction to the question he'd asked 
-Yeah we'd trade a secret for a secret- though it would help both of us to say part of our truths out loud he is not the right person, I'm sure of it.
My current sessions (2 per month) are supposed to be for this, thanks to Adri. As of now all that can be done would need to be non related to Owen's previous asked question.
Things don't always go the way one may want, it doesn't mean we should stop and not try again. If anything it should help us regain ourselves as a person. Though many of us would think this way people aren't always what they seem on the outside. I can very much relate considering talking about my problems  is not very "normal" they are there, they exist.

So many things would be different if my mother had decided not to give birth to me all these problems wouldn't exist. Adri wouldn't have to be going through all this shit because of me. I've watched that boy do everything in his power to help anyone in need, more when it comes to me yet it's far to the point where he places anybody before himself. Certainly it's appreciated, many of the sacrifices he has made it would all be better if there was one of us. If these circumstances didn't exist he wouldn't have to deal with such things,  he would be the most happy brilliant person. That's what I'd like for him, to be the best version of himself something not possible with me in his life. 
-What do you want Allysa- answering the phone without properly looking at the caller Id is something regretting, talking in that tone towards also. His following words bring me back...
-Its me Kendra, is now not a good time to call- Adrian states in his whisper voice (not normal), less calm than normally (also again not normal)
-You need me there right now?- my heart rushes my blood stays still for what may seem forever. Adri is not the type of person to ask for help unless it's really necessary, it must be bad for him to mention it. 
-If it's not a problem- he finally says after a while

-I'll be there in 5- my head directs to Owen who is now currently starring afar, in his own thoughts 
-Hey Owen, um I'm really sorry to leave you like this but there's been an emergency. We'll talk another time.- hopefully we get some more time now that Katherine is going to spend more time around here. 
-Yeah it's fine I understand you have your priorities- his words sting not having much time to respond, my feet head towards myself heading out. 
-Are you sure, Adrian wouldn't mind me not going- his eyes meet my glaze for some reason I can't pull away from looking at him, he truly looks out of it and just plainly numb not really caring. 
-Its alright just go ahead don't mind me- his words say a whole different thing to what he is wanting, our eyes indicate both our secrets will unravel at its given time.