My Devil's Room

I didn’t want to die but I committed,

Taught me a heaven where hell was permitted,

Told me to speak so why was I shut up?

There is no safety in a mental lockup,

My race wasn’t my choice,

My gender doesn’t diminish my voice,

I said no but they didn’t give a damn,

Your hate doesn’t define who I am,

My treasure may not be gold,

My truth isn’t something to scold,

My body is my vote,

When the high hits, why can’t I float?

When the water rises, how did I drown?

My tiara died for that crown,

And yet I scream ‘cause I’m trapped,

Something in my mind has snapped.

We use our blood to baptize,

Our eyes fixed on our size,

Yet I’m living, I’m dying,

I’m crying, stop trying,

Your lying, stop prying,

I’m frying, your buying,

I’m hurting, I’m screaming,

I’m laughing, I’m beaming,

I wanted to live but life kicked me out,

I can’t hear when you shout,

Life isn’t fair

When people aren’t there,

Or they don’t even care,

So why do they stare?

I just want to be free from me,

I scare myself with the things I think,

I know some things that I wish weren’t true,

I wish, I wish, I was just like you,

I can’t cry for the life I’ve never had,

The one I have is the reason it’s bad,

I wanted to sink when I rose,

I left demons under my nose,

But before I could stop, I had let go.

- IADSEKANDCHONZ