Mental Reality

My mind is a key trapped in a cage,

I have the pencil to write the next page,

I drown in these pressuring crowds,

I can’t breathe inside these clouds,

I’m burning inside our own damn fire,

My future’s looking kind of dire,

I build my walls to watch them break,

Opening my eyes wishing I was awake,

Closing them don’t make people less fake,

Being perfect means making mistakes,

We’re all trapped in our own panic room,

The night is where our sunflowers bloom,

We’re hitting a wall made of brick,

Sunshine on a stick don’t make us less sick,

Why wasn’t I told, all that glitters ain’t gold?

That hellish feeling like I’m being controlled,

Like I can see, but I’m in a blindfold,

Maybe some scenes are better untold,

Like being myself really makes me unreal,

Doing my best still don’t make me ideal,

The worst part is hiding how I’m not to feel,

I can’t drive, why do I have the wheel?

I have a school glaring with grades,

My heart is fixed with ready blades,

I have scars that don’t know how to forgive,

I have a mind that didn’t want to live,

My body is nothing more than a kink,

I scare myself with the things I think,

I’m living old and aged in my youth,

I am silenced for speaking my truth,

And I have ambition, I know affliction,

I know the sky is my only restriction,

I see the world behind our constrictions,

Addiction, eviction, cruel ass depictions,

Don’t compare us when we contrast,

You can go first but I’ll never be last,

Remember this, I can write my own hymns,

 And I don't drown in the oceans I swim,

And you’re not a king if you’re on my throne,

You’re not a queen when your crown’s your tone,

You’re not royalty when your heart is stone,

You can feel lonely but you’re not alone.

- IADSEKANDCHONZ