VIII.

Because, there were things that hurt me a lot, I knew it, But he already had a girlfriend was very difficult for me, Acting as a friend, keeping that friend's face I couldn't keep pretending, But they know it's the strangest thing, checking his Facebook, There was a guy in a profile called Hared had pictures with Alex, I immediately sent him a request, I didn't think about it and I waited all the time to talk to him.

And it was much better talking to him, That boy called hared treated him ugly and he never left me, I turned 16, if another year passed, And he was still with me even if it was by message
I turned 17 and I realized that if I was in love with him, I felt the desire to love him, He was the love of my life, It was already 3 years of having him with me all the time, I support myself,
But he needed someone there, to touch him, to hug him, unfortunately, I did not have that power.

I couldn't hold her in my arms, I couldn't make her happy, So I started drinking alcohol, I was so alcoholic that now I need more than 3 drinks to cry.

I already had a girlfriend, Too pretty, And I'm ugly, I can't do anything.
I never change, my job is drowning me, my mother left, I decided to take a 6-cut scholarship to do ripa, everything was improving, so I thought, And I decided to go to work at the company that my mother works, Your mother was strange your boss at work, And all that but it was even worse, After a year I became obese, The nerves made me fat, I felt insecure, in itself, life no longer had meaning for me.

My emotional hell began to shine, One night December 31, 2019 I went to drink with some friends, And suddenly a boy told me hey you dance and I answered that yes, I showed him all my potential, It was 3 years of dance school, And I dance to blackpink music, but you know what that one told me, And he told me you have potential but you are very fat, No, not fat, obese, I get very angry, he was laughing at me,
I spent 1 month without dating, I became bulimic, I became bulimic, I already felt silly, the truth should no longer exist, I knew even more I wanted to have a boyfriend in person, And it hurt me more, it did not serve me at all, And in this relationship I pass the music of Selena Gomez, That's my love life this time, And my family is still shit.
Only bad memories of that life End ..