How I am and how I heal!

I don't know why I'm feeling alone, a cloud of loneliness is showing sadness inside me. Even though people are ther it's like being in a place with a thousand people but feeling invisible to every one of them.

People have started ignoring me, the people close to my heart, and I'm here writing this to make It a bit far.

It’s like walking on a path without any directions, without any idea when it will end. Just walking till it's end thinking I may find the life I want. I have a very countable people whom i share a little, some with my sis (shruti) and some with my goddess. 
Today I feel I'm done, I don't know why and for what mu heart is craving for, but it's aching. 
I'm the person who mask my face with a smile and my heart soft. But today I'm not even able to bring that smile. The heart which I kept soft is pricked by knifes. 
I just wanna cry badly but I eye pains while my head hurts. 
I'm young, still living in my teens but there isn't a thing I have gone through.

Not even food is able to get me full because I need is a nice laugh, till it aches. Not even water is able to freshen my face because I need is smile, a reason to smile. So that my heart heals. 
But there's nothing, all is ignorance, pain, suffer, betrayals, sadness, loneliness.
I just need is someone for support, someone for love, who knows how I am and how i heal. 

All the darkness on the side

And I'm on the bright

But the flashes won't leave me

Like the sun in the sky. 

I'm a free fly

Like the bird in the sky

Living to be free

Either of the sides

~Nishmitha anchan