Escape...

Sometimes reality is too much to accept, & all we need is an ESCAPE, a break, from everyone & everything.

Some people seek it into their friends, others in families, others express in their own creative ways, all beautifully...

But there is another type of people, types like me, who can neither fully express, nor fully hide...

 Everybody's life is tough, & goes through up & down, like some boring Economics' Curve...

& during the lows specially we need our people, our loved ones, to stand by us, to console, to give a shoulder of support, & to cherish!

But what if you have to act brave, for the sake of your loved ones, what if you can't express? What if to lift them up from your lows, you have to bury your pain under that smile????

Yes, than you need an escape, an escape from everyone, for yourself!

& I always need an escape, being good at expressing everything that's not related to my sorrows & pains! & that escape for me has always been through WRITING...

I & my family is suffering from a very difficult phase currently, & so much so that I can't even think of anything else, neither study, nor story! Even my hunger is dying!

For an Indian middle-class family, all that matters is their small source of income & the small moments of happiness with the family, & they are shattered if anything of these is destroyed! Well in my case I'm suffering from both, & what affects me more is the tensed faces of those ever smiling people, whom I love, who love my moody, & weird self unconditionally!

You can get my pain maybe, maybe not! I don't know, but I have nobody else to share anything then you people, for I can't let them worry more sharing my own worries, & I'm worst at luck when it comes to friends, lol!

So here am I, searching for my ESCAPE!

I thought to stop writing for a while, but I think this is the time, when I need to write the most! & anyways life keeps going on, right???

& I'll try my best to ESCAPE through writing, & give you people regular updates, but if I'm not able to, then please forgive your disturbed Author for a few days...

Yours extremely DISTURBED Author,

~$D